The way i see it

Work play. Marketing.

2012-01-27T00:59:00.003+10:00

It's been almost a year i have been working in the marketing department at dlmi. Many people still don't understand what marketing is all about. And on this post, i would like to extend a bit of my understanding on what marketing working environment is like.

Now let me just state what marketing is all About.

1) marketeers plans the marketing strategy of a brand each year.
2) marketeers seek for opportunities to expand their brands
3) marketeers decides the feel and aura that a brand gives, And this involves the development of free gifts, point of sales materials and development of ads
4) marketeers delivers the needs of consumers, and creates the needs of consumers on the things they might not need
5) marketeers plans for new product development to cater for the ever changing consumer needs
6) marketeers engage with pr agencies to manage consumer relations and media relations with the public
7) marketeers look into channels and distribution channels they can penetrate into to expand their business
8) marketeers sets the direction of the company is the major core department in the business divisions
9) marketeers plans many on ground activation events to such as sampling, roadshows, school visits and etc to get closer to their consumers
10) marketeers are responsible of understanding consumer's needs and engaging with them.

if you think you're the type of person who loves to work in a dynamic challenging environment that could be quite hectic and involves a lot of coordinating and planning, then this job is the right one for you.

Despite the busy work schedule, marketing is a good area to start your career, it's fast paced and exciting all at the same time.

i really do enjoy what i have been doing for the past 8 months, though sometimes i question whether this career path is right for me. But then again, talking about the working environment, everywhere is sort of the same, i just got to learn to adapt and know how to play the game. On another note, there's so much that i have to learn since everything is new for me. And i got to keep my heads high and my chin up, and have faith that i can really do this!

On another note, Working in such a big corporation has allowed me to get to know quite a few remarkable figure in the industry, people who made a difference in the msian scene, and i am glad to be given such chance to work closely with them.

And today i got to work the late yasmin ahmad's husband, mr tan yew leong, and this is quite a remarkable day for the year 2012, knowing that he is yasmin's husband made me feel so timid and small despite the fact that i am on the client side. Lol. Got to have lunch with him and some small chat. That was exciting enough for me.

And now i am loving the start of the year 2012. Cheers to a great year ahead :)

Sweet

2011-11-30T01:49:00.000+10:00

My sister Ana is so sweet, she got me this today :)

I feel so loved! because it has been a while since I last got something that I really want for a present from someone very dear to me. This is one of those, little things that really counts in life when in fact, tomorrow is actually Her Birthday.

Happy Birthday Sister Ana, this is the first time in 4 years that we are celebrating this together! =D

hmm

2011-11-19T14:56:00.003+10:00

i have high number of readers from the US, who are you guys.. i wonder?

my first Farm Visit in Malaysia

2011-11-13T00:44:00.001+10:00

if you have never been to a dairy farm, then this is one of the most memorable experience you will ever had. As for me, this is NOT my first time, but actually just my first ever in Malaysia! the last farm that I visited was 4 years ago in Australia for one of my AGRC courses. Anyway back to roller coaster working life, the reason why I was assigned to visit the farm on behalf of the company was because I will be organizing a school trip for the winners of Who's the Genius Contest on behalf of NSTP. The journey to get to the farm was a very long one indeed, to my surprise, most of the dairy farms in Malaysia are located way up above a hill, or somewhere in the middle of nowhere. this is mainly because most of the cow's are imported from overseas, they needed a much lower temperature to be able to survive in such tropical country. to be frankly honest I had always imagined the dairy cow's in Malaysia to be brown. but wow wow wow, to my surprise I was greeted by the faces of lovely, very tamed friendly black and white cows.

now just check out the beautiful pictures I managed to snap during my short day trip

this is how a female cow will look like

their size is slightly smaller compared to the ones I saw in Aussie

milking area, this pic needs to be rotated to the right. Milking is done every morning
the 50 female cows placed in this farm, is only fertilized by 2 male cows. LOL.

adorable spots they have :)

getting all giddy up with the cows as i entered their cage area

Myself with them

cute baby cow's. i love how cute they look!

myself, being all excited yet scared as the cow started to lick off my jeans

Kak Liza a veterinar from the Ministry's office working closely with DLMI,
she basically ensures that the cow's here are well taken care of
and produce the highest quality of milk

the cow's having their afternoon nap after a tiring, milking morning

Looking at how healthy the cows looks, No wonder our milk, is the no. 1 choice in Malaysia , now I am all excited to plan the agenda for the Winning School of the WTG contest :)

Release

2011-11-08T00:07:00.000+10:00

Release yourself from all the demands and judgement that have kept you limited.
Release yourself from hatred and the past that kept you isolated
Believe the earth is round, and you are on your way up
Believe that even when the world goes down on you
You still worth a lot more than they think you do.

if

2011-10-03T00:25:00.000+10:00

if every single thing that you do don't feel right,
what does it really mean?
could it be that God is trying to tell you something?

if every single step you made,
feels like a torture to your leg,
could it be that you just don't belong?

if you got so many questions in your head.
but no answers came,
what do you do?

Have you ever wondered what God is trying to tell you?
Have you?

Dislike.

2011-05-06T02:36:00.002+10:00

When I am on a mission to learn or do something, I really hate it when there is a person who likes to discourage me in proceeding with my goals or have no patients in seeing me going towards my goals or those that likes to give negative comments about it. Somehow it felt, like they are trying to make you think You can't do it, or You can Never achieve it.

but do bare in mind, that one of the greatest pleasure in life is achieving something great, that no one expect you can. and I am all of that. so as childish as it will sound, stop me if you can reality.

Bosses

2011-05-05T00:22:00.007+10:00

having a good boss can make a lot of difference in the way you perceive your work. having the wrong ones, can kill your passion. having the wrong working environment can make you feel dreaded to wake up in the morning and drive to work.

well if you don't have the right leader. what you could do is probably just play along with what they are offering you. yet keep yourself motivated all the time. do not. EVER let anyone change you to become a pessimistic person and a negative one. once you started feeling that way. you either leave, to go to somewhere that you will be able to perform better, or suck it in and play it tough and professional. no whining no complaining, just distract yourself with a positive attitude. if you can't do that. for what is worth; LEAVE!.

anyhow i would really like to thank my dear ex boss Ahmad Fauzi Yahya for all the every morning, words of wisdom, encouragements and faith in me. i could never wished for a better head start to my career. For me he is great Leader, who cares very much about his employees, and I am really glad to be given the opportunity to work with him. I may have grown out of the organization, but i will never forget the values that i've been taught during my short stay in the team. Alhamdulillah I've been blessed.

my work Life review

2011-04-14T02:25:00.008+10:00

it's been a week or so i have been joining the induction program of my current job. the 17 bunch of us pretty much complement each other very much in many different ways. each came in with their own unique personality and I have never seen such wonderful "colour" combination at this stage of my life.

we were pretty much strangers to one another on the first day but somehow we click in just as soon as the program begins. somehow i think deep down there must be that one very unique thing that really connects us in a way. probably its the drive to do great things, probably great passion to some, i don't know which. but looking forward, sure starting out on our own in the next week should be very nerve wrecking but exciting at the same time.

we will be divided into various core functions, from Finance, HR, Sales and Marketing, Supply Chain and Technical and Production. Hence this means total separation for most of us. I am definitely going to miss this so called honeymoon period we had, like a tourist- going to briefings of the different business units, then to the many visits to the Long term partners, retailers, distribution center and the factory.

to the new lovely and dear friends i made, I am glad to be given the opportunity to get to know all of you.
-shahirah, sarah, megan, joon nie, teyor, imran, chloe, amir, zetch, benjamin, sue san, alvin, pey ying,kenneth, jia lynn, and kim. all the best in the next challenge of our new beginnings, may things will work out fine for all of us in the future. life has been awesome with this bunch of people around. perhaps i should just let the picture do all the talking.

one team- zero waste-100% engagement

crazy bunch of friends i love. :)

could life be any sweeter?

Cheers to a great year for the Management Trainee 2011 team- our first outing session 6th April 2011 :)

a wide open blind eye

2011-04-03T14:44:00.001+10:00

Amazing guy with amazing talent, a gift in disguise turn him into a not so blind person after all.
should we not turn a blind eye the next time?

| Artists Wanted | In Focus : Pete Eckert from Artists Wanted on Vimeo.

Quote

2011-04-03T13:29:00.005+10:00

"I have learnt that your heart breaks the most when you trust the other person to treat you well and they didn’t in the end; which is why getting hurt by bad boys is much less hurtful than when the good ones betray you "Quoted from a dear friend, Oselot. so true! But sure something better awaits us

The simple things I really miss

2011-04-03T13:08:00.005+10:00

Hopping into the bus anytime of the day
Taking the city cat ride with someone I love to spend time with and feel the breeze of the air passing through my skin
Walking around small town which has a small little bookshop and having Brumby's along the way
Having takeaways at a beautiful garden next to the river during sunset
Leading an active lifestyle; like going out with someone just walking around in a nice small town without taking a car
Having so many thoughts in my head while waiting for the train
Going to the supermarket, thinking of what to buy and what to cook when i get back home
Having the freedom to make my own decisions in anything that matters in life without the need to consult anyone
Watching a band playing jazz music like the one i went at Brisbane Powerhouse
Going to the Saturday market with friends buying veggies and all.
Having breakfast in the middle of the green field of west end market
Buying groceries with friends and straightaway planning to cook together. That's how my usual Saturday used to be.
Walking around the small town in the middle of the night while gazing at the beautiful sight of the moon and the stars
Having ice-cream and sitting in front of Chai's just talking with a mate on everything that matters in our life
Going to friends house, hanging out in their room and just chilling doing nothing and laughing to just about anything

Education: path to success?

2011-03-21T02:26:00.005+10:00

This is an interesting video which talks about how the public education system have Made some of us Proud or Crush some of us Hard. A video which shows how the education system is making school like a factory production house, producing school leavers in batches and batches form according to their age and not their IQ and talent (hence making it seemed totally wrong, come to think of it again). Think you've benefited from the system? hmm guess there is a need to re-evaluate the system to make everyone feels like a winner and proud of their own personal talents and jobs of course!

p/s: I've always felt the system is somehow so wrong as it is degrading some great undiscovered talents out there. Blergh..

Thoughts

2011-03-21T01:45:00.002+10:00

All the things we own, right now is something that is borrowed. today its mine, tomorrow who knows. be Thankful of each of the blessings we've received, If its gone, be Thankful that it came, if you Miss it, just know that there always something better awaits. He knows you well. He knows what's best. have Faith and keep rolling Strong. because before you know it, things will look much better again :)

Embarking to the next step!

2011-03-18T01:39:00.008+10:00

through the ups and downs of life that many of us had to go through, i too have a story of my own. my story is a special one for me because once again, God did not fail me. Alhamdulillah.

one to another sets of interview, incoming calls of failures telling you did not make it. my dream company called and pick me up. and get me back on track in life. hey hey hooray for me! Fated i feel.

To get where I want to be, i went high up and down low to get just on track of the journey. 5 stages of interview session was set up by the company, which starts of with an essay writing test, then to phone interview, followed by a face to face interview, then to the business plan presentation, and finally a social cocktail interview. i could say that the process that we went through was just like what you've seen in The Apprentice show. It was quite an experience to remember.

out of 1000 applicant who applied, only 19 of us made it to the finals. which we found out in the end, that the finale was actually a scam and the finale was held just so they get the chance to bully us before we get in and it was actually the way that the HR team used to introduce us to the leading faces of the company!

i got to meet the best of the best individuals in the industry, many had so many experience, be it in our local industry or the overseas. and the 19 of us who made it through all had a mind blowing backgrounds in their respective areas. praise to God once again for giving this opportunity to us, and I do believe that my career aspiration could be delivered through working with them, as the company that i chose, have the same aspiration as I do.

Heinrich Nestle a Leo born like me, i salute you! for your drive and passion, towards providing a better health and nutrition to the society! your vision back in the 1800 never dies, like super, really :)

Recap.

2011-03-12T15:06:00.004+10:00

Funny thing about the natural disaster which are on the hit list right now involves all the past cities I've visited in these past few years. I did not realize it at first, till my sister and a good friend of mine mention it. LOL.

Despite of the odd coincidence, i feel really sad about these places as all 3 of them is one of the best places I've visited in my lifetime. well to summarize it all, here goes:
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Brisbane
it is the land of the green and eco-friendly. people go out not caring much about what they wear, many choose to go out and chill with just their thongs, shirt and shorts, and some don't wear thongs at all, life is slow and steady, the city view along the river is beautiful, people are always smiling for good reasons, and they are always working towards a better community. I love the breeze of the air that you can feel while passing by the river along the Southbank area and the easy breezy life over there.

Christchurch
It is one of the most beautiful places in the world, the land area is so beautiful as it is so green and weather is nice even during summertime. the beautiful cathedral church in christchurch is an iconic building over there, a must place to take photo at. i like how most of the housing area over there is built in a one -storey design only and they are all different from one another. the people there grow beautiful roses and flowers at their housing compounds making it a very beautiful, cosy place to live in. a short 30 minutes drive from the city centre can take you to miles and miles of sheep and dairy cow farming area which is also another beautiful sight. While I was there I also pass through this one place which is sort of like a harbourside of Christchurch where the sea side along the mountain looks like a reflection from the sky. I felt like it was another stage of a heaven sight while looking at that.

Sendai
is a small city located on the northeast side of Japan, it is about 45 minutes train ride via shinkansen to Tokyo, the weather is super cold during winter time and i love this one food item called kamaboko made of fish (which i've learnt the method to prepare it while i was in my second year of uni, hence making the trip more interesting). there is also this one very nice spongy dessert filled with custard cream which is also Sendai main speciality of which i can't remember or recall the name at all. haha. I had a very nice inter-cultural experience while i visited Sendai. Got to try on a real Kimono and learn the Japanese Fisherman dance which is also known as the Sendai Fisherman's dance. Sendai is also popular of Matsushima a place where you can see a few small islands around the harbour. The temple that I visited here is one of the most beautiful as it is as admirable as the ones I've seen in Kyoto.
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Well i do know that things will get better in these areas, the work towards rebuilding Brisbane and Christchurch is currently going on, next should be Japan. but the thought of the many people being helpless and dying while it occur is just so devastating.

My next dream destination would be Istanbul and New York City. Istanbul because of its different culture and NYC because i really want to know what is so great about it, though deep down i got a feeling that i am going to get disappointed like the way i felt about Tokyo. For me big cities are all just sort of the same, govern by human dreams, places with culture and beautiful sights on the other hand are created by God are so different to one another. hence making it an eye opener :)

Ignorant americans.

2011-02-13T11:23:00.004+10:00

Dad sent me this video through my e-mail. and I thought it is interesting to share but bear in mind. this could not have reflected the total population of Americans. Enjoy. :)

After effect

2011-02-12T11:51:00.002+10:00

the one thing that my friends and i have to agree about coming back is it changes you in a way. we are not the same person anymore. being in a comfort zone, makes us somewhat less responsible. more relaxed and chilled because most of us are born in a quite fortunate environment. not having to worry about money as much. living in our parent's house. and having that shoulder to rely on most of the time. and always having another person to catch us if we fall, those things are what we'd call the living in a comfort zone life.

it's sort of the easier way of life kind of way. all we have to worry about is how to get through life. work. and all we have to do is just. Work. Chill. Sleep. Work.Chill. Sleep. and What we want to do with our monthly salary. which fully goes to us and not to the many many bills. bills. bills like before. we don't even have our own family to work for. hence making life a lot easier at the moment. and since the availability of food is abundant, we are also not required to cook as much.

i kind of miss. the old more responsible. take life more seriously, not having the other person who'd catch me if I fall old self. because that teaches me a lot about hardship. being independent. and responsible.

it's a common thing that we all share at the moment. and its not just coming from us 3 last night. but from most of my friends that resides together while we were over there.

i wonder what else would change about me and the others in the next 5 years...

Deep.

2011-02-04T02:34:00.002+10:00

for this new phase of my life. i wish to make them happy while i still can. be there for them as much as i can. make time for them while i still can. and spend more time with them as much as i can.

time is precious. i'm out most of the days during the weeknights. and weekends is all i got. away for a very long while. so this is the time for me to pay back those missing times.

they told me to carry on with life. grab the opportunities outside. take up the challenge while I am still young and carefree. and to not worry about them.

apparently that's not the easiest thing to do. the opportunity here may not be as great as what the future holds for me out there. but then again. this makes me happy and content enough to get through life. and God is fair. i know He is.

put your record on

2011-01-22T02:21:00.000+10:00

This is real. this is real. this is real

2011-01-12T14:00:00.003+10:00

that's the road in front of my house.

no more nando's no more chai's no more thai. no more miss india.

just look at the water level near the bus stop. that's above my head already

things in our garage must be damaged by now

to my dearest friends stay strong in this tough time

*praying hard for things to get better*

The Green Concern.

2011-01-11T22:57:00.000+10:00

In doing my part for the environment. I will;

stop accepting plastic bags at the counter
stop buying magazines every month, read it online instead
stop purchasing books and start a book swap club instead
stop buying too many clothes, donate, reuse, recycle, restyle or whatever
stop wasting electricity as it leads to more carbon emission.
stop taking long showers and make it short instead
stop buying nylon fabrics as my choice of garments as it takes too long to decompose
start bringing my own tupperware for takeaways to reduce the use of styrofoams food container
start bringing my own water bottle wherever i travel, to discourage the plastic industry from evolving
start teaching my nephew and nieces to reuse and recycle and care for the environment

here's the fact to decompose it takes,

10-20 years for Plastic bags
1 million years for Glass bottle
500 years for Plastic Beverage Bottle
1-5 months for Cotton rags
2-5 months for Paper
3-14 months for Rope (natural fiber)
6 months for Orange peels
1-5 years for Wool socks
3-12 years for Cigarette filters
5 years for Milk cartons
25-40 years for Leather shoes
30-40 years for Nylon fabric
450 years for Plastic 6-pack holder rings
100 years for Styrofoam cup

how can you help for the future of tomorrow? :)

Top 20 things I have experienced in last decade

2011-01-02T02:45:00.010+10:00

It's almost midnight at the moment and in a few minutes the clock will show 12.00am in the morning and its the beginning of the second day of 2011. Well I hope its not too late for me to recap how the last decade of my life went by on this blog site of mine. so here are the top 20,

I've ride a Horse on my own in the Australian Hinterland
I've Skied at Mount Baw Baw Victoria
I've done Abseiling at Genting when i was 15
I've Conquered 70% of the land of the rising sun Japan
I've Been in a pretty bad accident and got robbed in New Zealand
I've Stayed, Studied and Worked in Australia for 4 years
I've Overcome my fear and picky-ness over Food
I've Went through some crazy moment of shifting from one college to another during pre-u back in 2005
I've Graduated with a First Class Honours from University of Queensland
I've learned to Play music and learned Malay cultural dance
I've Scored a pretty good result for all Malaysia's Exam
I Was the Editor in Chief for my High School Magazine
I Was Part of the school Choir Team, a singing bee once.
I've Hosted a Garage Sale and Start up a Banana Fritters(Cekodok) Business in Brisbane with D
I've Been to Imran Sidiqqi Talk in Brisbane
I've Met wonderful new friends and i am still connected with Old Buddies back home
I've been to the X-Factor Audition and saw Ronan Keating, Natalie Imbruglia Live
I've Been even more closer to God
I've Worked in Paul's Parmalat Dairy Factory
I've Won first place for a Drama Competition which I directed (Puteri Hang Li Po) in 2004

I've been Blessed with a wonderful life. but i am aware that I am one imperfect being in this world and there are many things that i need to brush up about myself. as the saying goes,

"every sinner deserves a future, and not every saint has a good past, give me a chance, i may take forever, but i really want to do it right".

Let's pray and hope that the next 10 years to come, will be another great adventure for me and you. List down yours, and you might discover that you are pretty awesome after all. hehe

So Happy New Year Everyone! Cheers for another great year ahead! InsyAllah :)

the road not taken

2010-12-28T19:06:00.003+10:00

there is this one road that I have been wanting to take. it's kind of like my dream. since i was about 18. been wanting to get there. get started. and just do it. and talking for hours and hours with my sister last night till 4am in the morning. it just brings back that desire straight to my head. but this time. it feels more right. this time it feels so realistic.

may be its gonna be a success. may be it's gonna be quite unknown. but who cares. i'm just gonna swing the goal!

you got my heart pumping and pumping. once again. Cheerios! :)

B105

2010-12-27T21:35:00.003+10:00

it's kind of nice to tune to B105 while cleaning my room in Malaysia.

Hamish and Andy I kind of miss your morning show.this is Lovely! :)

write.

2010-12-26T22:03:00.003+10:00

write daily, even if its just one sentence only.
a quote from the book entitled La Tahzan that my housemate Jaja borrowed to me last semester.
this advice works for me. and it may just help to keep each tired souls out there, Happy.InsyaAllah :)

almost the perfect scene.

2010-12-21T11:34:00.004+10:00

the biography channel Astro played a documentary on my late uncle last night.
everything was right. the atmosphere. the feeling just was just all great and perfect as almost the whole family member gathered in front of the TV like how it used to be back when i was young. just this time. with many new additions to the family. with mazree, abang ali, muiz, arissa and mazwin.

it was almost the perfect scene as only Ana was not there. She had to work. making news on the TV.hehe
i love this kind of moments. it is way better than me being away watching it all alone in my room in Brissy via the internet and ended up crying by myself to sleep.

i feel very proud to be part of the tribe and one day. i want to be able to contribute as much as he and my late grandmother did back then. InsyAllah

Al-Fatihah. :)

Cute.

2010-12-20T17:54:00.009+10:00

yesterday, i passed by abang's room and i saw lil muiz sitting on the toilet bowl doing his business with the help of abang, so i immediately go;

"muiz.... euuuuuuuuuuuuuwwwwwwwwwwww"
as i left, muiz look at Abang, and told abang this;
"khalo, girls are always like that you know"

LOL. very cute reply from a 5 year old boy.
guess that's how the girls at the kindie are like
talk about girl-boy thing. at a very young age hah =P

closing chapter

2010-12-18T23:40:00.005+10:00

there is no doubt that i will miss the combination of the Lafayettes.
we were kind of lost when we first arrived. not knowing who to trust. then we found each other.

from the day that we decided to move in together
then to the awesome birthday trip to sunshine coast for horse riding
then to the countless long hours drive to the byron bay.
and the many many shopping hours we spent together.

we laughed, we cried, we shared our worries and dreams together
we are so similar in some ways. but somewhat different in some areas
but we learned to accept each other for all our strengths and weaknesses
and brought happiness and laughter for the remaining years that came after that.

then in a flash it was the right time to bid farewell.
her eyes got red. i was prepared. told her not to cry. and i was just really touched by her gesture.
we hugged. like it was going to be the lastime.because she will be far. and i don't know when's the next time
then i told her. maybe someday i'll visit you in the land of borneo. few years from now, who knows

deep down i just knew that we'll be the sort of friends that will be there for each other for the longest time. i shall make a scrapbook to compile all the loving times we shared back then

i pray for her success and hope that everything will be great for her in the end.
wouldn't want to promise anything but maybe its just enough that we know how much we meant to each other in this lifetime.

glee and gwyneth. nice. :)

2010-12-06T13:04:00.002+10:00

my favourite tv show + my all time favourite actress

=the perfect combination

like that.

2010-12-01T13:59:00.001+10:00

A dream came true for B & A

We flying the first class
Up in the sky

Poppin' champagne
Livin' the life
In the fast lane

And I wont change
For the glamorous, oh the flossy flossy

and accidentally, just a little dose of it. makes me dizzy already.

probably a decade a bit too late

2010-11-29T02:48:00.012+10:00

i feel like i am a decade a bit too late when it comes to learning how to style, how to look nice and etc. i can't sleep tonight and so i decided to look at my things, play around with my clothes and decide which item to go into the donation box and which to keep.

well being the smart ass nerdy kid i am. and always busy with my close-knit family agendas, at the same time a part time helper to mum in the house, a cook, a grocery shopper, a bill/rent payer in Brissy, a listener and friend to my sisters, babysitter/playmate to my nephew and in the future nieces, and at the same time trying my best to keep up with friends back in Malaysia and here, and most importantly doing my best to maintain a good cGPA to please my sponsors, i haven't got much time to pay attention to look after myself and this can get a little bit crazy and hectic when i am back home.

hence i never knew i could do so much with the all the clothes and stuff that i have. i have plenty of stuff. but i don't really know how to mix and match them. usually i will go plain. a shirt will be a shirt. and i will wear it as it is with a pair of jeans.

well tonight i discovered. a skirt is not just a skirt. a cardigan makes everything looks decent. and a belt is capable of doing the magic. so i decided that i am going to keep most of my things. because i might need it in the future. plus. most of the stuff that i have is pretty brand new and some is pretty pricey. and to top that up, i haven't been wearing it much and i should give it a little bit more chance to shine on me. hehe.

too many things that i have to do in this week. and again when this kind of period comes, i usually become insomniac. because my mind can't stop thinking even when the clock strikes 2am in the morning.

and today well today was surprisingly fun. an unplanned buffet dinner with D and B at sizzler. never thought i could be so full eating at sizzler. for the first time in my life i overloaded my stomach with lots of veggies and seafood in a night. (despite the fact that i am kind of allergic to seafood especially prawns and crabs). but then again. it was pretty awesome. especially when the buffet comes together with the delicious dessert.

so tonight we promised each other that the next person who gets a job will have to treat a buffet dinner at a nice i mean really "nice" cosy place. because its been a long time for the 3 of us had a proper nice yummylicious halal buffet dinner.

D and B. our time is running fast. you two are the ones that i will miss definitely.

I'll be

2010-11-19T13:31:00.003+10:00

The strands in your eyes that color them wonderful
Stop me and steal my breath.
And emeralds from mountains thrust toward the sky
Never revealing their depth.
Tell me that we belong together,
Dress it up with the trappings of love.
I'll be captivated,
I'll hang from your lips,
Instead of the gallows of heartache that hang from above.

I'll be your crying shoulder,
I'll be love's suicide
I'll be better when I'm older,
I'll be the greatest fan of your life.

............................................................

a song beautifully written by edwin maccain.

my first ever post. here.

2010-11-19T13:13:00.005+10:00

its been a week or so that i didn't go online. i've been really busy traveling from one state after another. exploring. learning. enjoying every bits of this new environment as much as i can before it ends. i can't believe that i'm doing this on my own. and with language barrier and everything accompanied with just some other girls from uni as my travel partner. this is one very ouh wow. brave experience.

my mum was so worried that we'll be lost or won't be able to survive with the totally different culture and everything. but the girls and i, we did it. we really did it at this age of 23. well lets just call this one big very brave graduation trip.

its been only a week. and i've taken almost 800 shots already. this is one beautiful country. and if you have all the money in the world. please do come and visit this place. and go travel far and wide. it is really worth it to spend your every penny to see all these beautiful sight.

i did the right thing on being brave that morning in the library. asking mum's permission which she initially hesitated to allow me. but got her to say yes in the end as I told her I just really want to do it and have to do it. i ask her to just have faith in me and pray that everything will be okay.

and people say i am one crazy kid when i bought this ticket. well being spontaneous yet strong willed is kind of my thing. its been like that since a very long time.

thank you awesome parents :) well for having faith in me in the end.

p/s : Maybe some women aren't mean't to be tamed, maybe they were mean't to run wild until they find someone just as wild to run with hehe :) ouh no. and i don't ever want to leave this place.hehe

wow......

2010-11-08T13:05:00.001+10:00

waking up to not a thing in my head on those things related to my research.
just baking brownies. and planning one trip after another.

this must be a heaven state of mind for me :)

yet no time to waste. my time is running out at the moment.
another day to go. and i'm off boarding on the plane.

Learning back KL

2010-11-06T15:38:00.018+10:00

each year when i come back my home country i always find myself doing things that i'm used to do back before i left aussie. the standard mkn mkn, the standard one utama curve outing. and the standard family dinner routine. the whole i have to eat all the kfc. pizza huts and mcdonald's i can before i go back. just because here it is non halal.

i go back to those places just so i won't miss it again when i come back. but this time around it will be different. it will be sort of forever.

i have seen so many things in this four years of my life. and it has definitely change my ways of lifestyle. principles and the way i perceive things. i've seen a lot of development in myself. my interpersonal and social skill is way better than before. i am more independent in the way i think. more open to new things. just more flexible and adaptable than i was before. may be its part of growing up too. and not so much on the migration process that i went through.

i hope i will maintain the sort of traits and attitudes that i have adopted while studying here . and i hope i won't take things for granted when i come back to my used to be comfort zone. because the way i see it. back home mum and dad serves everything for us and i don't really have to be independent. apart from that i hope i will continue to improve my other weaknesses.

walking through the streets around here. feels like i'm walking down a road of the journey around the world. i got to know people from Africa, America, Uk, France, Hong Kong, Sweden, Japan, Fiji, Papua New Guinea, India, South Korea just so many. that i can't list all of them here.

We are all pretty much just the same. when we talk, we share similar things despite of the differences in our culture and upbringing. sometimes i wish we can make Malaysia a country like this. How the lifestyle here is so relaxed and chill. and more focused on better greener healthier family living. How people here are into sports in the evening. into good healthy nutritious eating, and bush walking and cycling and so many other things. they care about the environment and the mother earth and so as their family life a lot more than work. Also i admire the way the kids are brought up here. they are more independent and they take up job responsibilities at a very young age. something that i can't imagine myself doing at 13 or 14. which makes them a much more responsible. sensitive to their surroundings and are more careful and exposed in the way they think and do things

sometimes i don't know if this is really a new thing in my eyes because malaysia is not like this or is it just because i am one of those lucky malaysian who are born in quite fortunate environment. maybe i should explore the other side of life in malaysia. like people from other socio-economic environment and not just mingle with the people i grow up who have sort of the same kind of lifestyle that i have. pardon me for this big fuss on socio-economic thing. i'm a sociology nutrition background student and that's what i learn and discuss in class.

i hope we can make Malaysia a better country in the future. and i hope i will keep up the right attitude and principles so that i won't fall into the trap of being traditional and conservative in the future. not that being traditional and conservative is not a good thing. in some ways yes. it is. but in other areas. we need a change.

well isn't that what all religion thought us to do. to be a better person. to do better things. to form a better environment. for the benefits of all. sometimes. traditions and being conservative holds a nation back, being open minded and adaptable while maintaining your beliefs and iman is the way to go.

i don't know how life is going to be. it has always been something unexpected that amazes me and thought me many things. not so much of the things that i have planned really.

i have so may things in my head that i would like to say. just to share a bit of my life changing experience but then again. i feel so weird. writing it down and not knowing who reads this and all.

i am quite sentimental about this place. Malaysia is the place where i form my basic principles of life through my culture, upbringing and environment. and here is where i explore the diversity that the world has to offer and shape me into the adult i am today.

i will most definitely miss the river. southbank. the city. and the way they encourage better healthy lifestyle here. I am one of those lucky people to be given this opportunity. and i hope i will be able to give back to the people in need.

In the end, Brisbane is really lovely. the quietness has become my favourite crowd. and people are always smiling to one another for no reasons but everyone just smiles back in return. i admire the modesty. the kindness and friendliness of the people who live here. but hell yes for the rekindling of friendship and family bonds in the next year of my life with the people back home.

but then again.i will most definitely miss my aussie mates here in brissy. especially Ana carla. Queenie. and Oselyne.

ouh wow. i am rambling a lot.

beautiful sight.

2010-11-03T09:43:00.021+10:00

we sat there quietly on the green grass at UQ athletic center in the middle of the night. under the moon and the stars near the Brisbane river on Halloween night.

it was one amazing beautiful sight. the moon was full and pearly white. felt like the outer space was almost touchable. and i wished i could capture the scene .but i can't. it's only beautiful when seen with our very own pair of naked eyes. and this is not the first time I fell in love with the beautiful sight of the moon.

well take a look around, and you'll see the beautiful things created by the Almighty and you might fall under a magical spell like me. they'll take your restless mind on a holiday making you feel calm, at peace and tranquility. well at least for a little while.

and for what is worth, i really love how my life is so simple and basic over here.

just like a star. cover .

2010-11-02T22:41:00.000+10:00

ouh no.

2010-11-02T22:06:00.005+10:00

i can't seem to concentrate on my last writing. i don't know why :( my mind is somewhere out there but i don't know where. this is not good. 2000 words more to go. and i'm still procrastinating. am i planning to fail already? ouh god. this is seriously no good.

Thoughts

2010-11-01T02:07:00.009+10:00

I admire guys who have close guy friends. those that they can call up in the middle of the night to do boyish brotherly stuff together. and continue to do it even when they settle down because of the brotherly bond they had together.

and so as the girls who have close girlfriends. those that they can call up. talk endlessly in the middle of the night. and do the many girly stuff together. and still do that till they have kids and share that bits of life with their girlfriends for the sake of sisterhood love.

because for me that's just the way its supposed to be. while you can mingle with different gender. you should still have your same gender friends who is close to you around. because no one could understand you better than the person who is the same gender as u. as they should have been through the same crap as you have. :)

and together we complete one another. hehe

a thousand splendid suns

2010-10-31T14:30:00.001+10:00

a book written by khaled hosseini.

a story about a girl named Mariam who is only 15 and was sent to Kabul to marry Rasheed. nearly 2 decades later, a friendship grows between Mariam and a local teenager, Laila, as strong ties between mother and daughter. When the Taliban take over life becomes a desperate struggle against starvation, brutality and fear. Yet love can move people to act in unexpected ways and lead them to overcome the most daunting obstacles with startling heroism.

sounds good isn't it. i could really use a good book right now to read. hehe

big happy day

2010-10-31T02:26:00.006+10:00

made someone happy today. by buying a cake for the birthday.
tired. and sleepy with running nose. we celebrated it while having a caramel frap.
but happy nonetheless. because. someone is smiling so widely today.
the day ended with another surprise celebration initiated by another friend of ours.
guess he is one lucky boy for the night. :)

baby

2010-10-29T01:29:00.002+10:00

approaching to one of those last few breath for this baby.
feeling rather scared, nervous and excited all at the same time.
my baby is on submission soon.very soon in fact.

sleep tight baby. may all my dreams will come true xoxo

Hey Na Na

2010-10-27T13:18:00.004+10:00

my words came true.

2010-10-26T10:54:00.012+10:00

we went to JB Hi-Fi. to get the Ipad for the AUG gala night dinner lucky draw.

but just doing it for fun, when the person asked us who are we getting it for,

we told the person we're buying it for a friend.

for some reason, we simply mentioned that its a he.

saying it with our minds. not knowing who is going to win it.

yet hoping that it will be ours

and in the end, our friend got lucky. and he is one very happy guy for the night.

his birthday is coming soon. and hence making that the perfect birthday present ever.

Happy birthday Zaki!

and that was the day I learn that we should always watch our words. because everything that comes out from our mouth is a prayer. on this case. its a happy granted words for sure. but watch your words, because who knows? it could be something you don't really wish to happen.

in between

2010-10-25T15:10:00.023+10:00

ever felt like you are caught in between your own dreams and desire and your loved ones?at times i do feel like I want to do something else this year and not what I am doing now. but as they say, opportunity does not come often, and you got to grab it and make the best of what you have because you might not get a second chance. So I tag along and do it anyway

but then again its not that easy. sometimes doing all of these, even means, sacrificing your time in the world with the people that you care about to achieve what they want you to achieve. and that makes me teary sometimes

the benefits that comes with the things that they desire and dreams for me is good. but i guess even when it means i got to sacrifice my time for this and make people around me my a second priority, well when i think about it again,

if those people around me are really worth it, they will be around and make it to my future.

don't get me wrong, I love that the fact that they believe in me and have faith that I am able to be all of that. and that is the most important thing that keeps me going most of the time.

another day in the BSL library. Have a good day everyone.

random

2010-10-24T01:28:00.006+10:00

looking back through life. you will come to realize how silly and immature you can be. the decisions you made. the things you do and say.which all in all just reflects back in your facial expressions and overall attitude.

but because the past is just a younger age of your life, you should not be judge. but rather be taught on how to look at things. punishing a person over immaturity is not fair as it doesn't teach that person anything.

And even God saves his Judgments to the very end of our life. showing how He is not judgmental or unfair to you.

Ironically the world is not that fair. but somehow i would like to know that I have made my decisions after thinking wisely and hoping I have been fair to everyone around me. even when the world choose to treat them unfairly. One person may not be able to change the world. but one person can definitely make a difference.

And Its been my dream to create a world of full of equality. where everyone can enjoy the same great pleasure of life. despite of their races, social standards, or religions. For at least, encouraging people to help one another, sharing love and taking care of each other would be good enough to make this world a much better place.

ouh well, another random ramblings for the night. and aside from that, its another fun night of Halloween. with gangstaB, and my gypsie. and myself as the tinker bell with my favourite jungle fairy. and loving every bits of bonding moment like that definitely :)

and praise to God for the great pleasure of life currently, Alhamdulillah.

i just feel like

2010-10-22T01:11:00.004+10:00

shouting this out tonight. my friend D is so sweet. she remembers every single detail of the wonderful stories i told her in the past. like every bits of it. even the stuff that i can't even recall myself telling it to her. and we all need a good listener like that. who remembers a lot rather than forgets.

happy friendship night y'all:) just because we're good friends like that!

the kindie

2010-10-21T18:15:00.007+10:00

i've told my employer regarding my intention to quit. and that's quite a relief after feeling quite guilty about it. working in the kindie has been totally awesome. i got to spend some time with little aussie kids aged between 3-5 years old. something that i won't get to do if i just stick to uni life and hanging out with my usual social crowd.

i'm going to miss playing with them, making roads and castles out of wooden blocks and helping out with the preparation for art classes. i love mingling with them because their imagination and creativity really amazes me and their imagination is not limited like us adults. they remind me that we should not limit ourselves to just knowledge and theories we learn in school but rather to think beyond the possible and start making it happen.

some of them have blond hair and big blue eyes. and some have curly hair. my favourites are mostly the ones with curly hair. felt like there's a sense of being in a family while working there. the kids are really interactive and talkative and easy to mingle with and they make me miss my little muiz back home as most of them are in the same age as him. and apart from that the director of the kindie treats me with respect and care about me a lot. its quite an experience as it has broaden my perspective on different cultures and their upbringings and i am really glad i took the offer.

8 and a half months went by so fast, and i will definitely be missing working at GCK. well till then folks:)

ouh God.

2010-10-20T20:30:00.002+10:00

why does the past keeps on coming back even when they are not welcome?
don't they get it. like seriously. stop coming back and haunt me.
it's not helping. and seriously being nice won't change anything. so deal with it.

places

2010-10-20T12:06:00.015+10:00

do you recognize those places around town that are close to your heart?
some places gives you so much to remember
those sweet memories and bitter ones that has taught you a lot about life.

some places were full of promises. which were then broken.
and having to look at it makes you bitter.

some places reminds you of happy days.
and all that just ended up being together with all your other happy thoughts
and when you see those places. you feel like you want to go back to that time
and live that life and make it great again.

i have those places in my heart well not just in my head.
some of those places makes me sad.
and some of those places brings a smile to my face.

it's funny how i'm caught in these kind of emotions once in a while
well time can never be reversed. and damage can never be undone.

that's just the way it is. if you know what i mean.
so don't go around town to places that makes you bitter

instead word of advice,
explore and discover new ones that will bring rainbows and sunshine to your life

and note to self, i need to start doing that now.

ouh wow.

2010-10-20T11:46:00.002+10:00

wow. 1 for funny. 1 for cool and 1 for interesting for the last post.
are telling me to shut it off.

okay now i feel very much unappreciated stranger. stop scaring me.

shut

2010-10-20T02:00:00.001+10:00

I feel kind of exposed sometimes. but at the same time time i want to be able to let things out and know that out there someone is reading. listening and trying to understand what goes on in my head.

thinking of shutting down my facebook. and this blogspot page currently.

but on a second thought I'm not sure if its a wise thing to do.

loving this.

2010-10-19T01:20:00.000+10:00

i'm loving this tune. sang by Indooroopilly state school choir club.

To Claire; From Sonny OST by Josh Beattie

missing the good old days back in smkdj choir club

strength

2010-10-17T12:55:00.004+10:00

because i am strong and not weak. hence I will get through this.

yours and mine. our fingers crossed.

was once a lost soul

2010-10-17T00:56:00.004+10:00

finding yourself in the midst of the crown was never that easy. i was watching eat pray love with my lovelies just the other day and that movie got me thinking about myself in the end.

if i were to be as lost in my soul as her, what would i do i wonder,

and the answer that came straight to my mind is going back to my family, and be around people who have left quite a trace in my heart and be alone just to have a think about things thoroughly before anything hits.

being the youngest one in the family, i have always had someone to talk to, with so many siblings and love being spread in the family, i never find myself being caught in loneliness and never so much on sadness, even if i am sad, i will cry my heart out and they will listen and give a good sound advice that i will follow.

but when i started being alone in a foreign city dated back in 2007, i remember feeling quite lost. my support group is so far away and i don't have any trusted shoulder to cry on at that time.

but that feeling did not last very long. I've learn so much about myself just a few months after that. and that experience that i had makes me a lot stronger at the heart and i became more confident than ever.and I would have to admit that the only thing that really guide me through and has helped me to survived in the end was the answer to my prayer from God.

the process that i went through was not easy emotionally. but in the end when i look at it again i am really glad that i had experienced it because

personally i think hardship in anything at all, just really takes you to another level of life. it takes you to a higher level of maturity, it helps you to grow emotionally and make you a much wiser person than ever.

i see it as a way of God helping you out without really helping you. it is only through all that hardship that you will get more chance to learn about yourself and be closer to Him. A love build from the love of God, is a love that will make happiness last to the longest time

so i have to point that, we all got to sail this island of hardship with faith and beliefs that we'll get through it somehow.

and in no time. without even realizing it we will all be smiling again and glad that it happened.

bold.

2010-10-15T01:00:00.007+10:00

i can be a bit too bold and brave sometimes.
making decisions just out of my strong desire to that little something.
sometimes I'll get too determined.
I'll do it on a full gear without thinking much and i'll just keep on believing

one dream is on its way to coming true.
perhaps. that excites yet scares me in a way. hehe

for Him only

2010-10-13T13:18:00.007+10:00

Sometimes i feel like i just can't get ahead.
i'm stuck here where i was left and i feel so helpless and depressed.
feels so alone felt that no one can understand this.
then all i can do is turn to You
because You are the one who has always been there for me and guide me through.

Then again I feel so shy and embarrassed to ask for Your help
after all those mistakes and sins I made in the past
I wonder if I still deserve those rahmats

At times like this I recite Your glorious book and search for You
so that I can carry on and live this life to the fullest without feeling blue

I thank You for all the strength and guidance You have provided me.
As at times like this I really need You to take care of me
You are kind and merciful as You are always ever ready to listen to my plea
and all that shows You had never seemed to give up on me.

I promise I will put my highest Faith in You,
my Almighty Allah the creator of the all the universe around me and you

Because tonight is the night to be remembered

2010-10-10T02:30:00.009+10:00

Tonight was the night that b and me threw away our thesis work aside.
Just us girls. we took a ride and went straight to GC in the middle of the night.

A non-stop talking session with the girls.
In that instant, I just knew that this is one of those things that I will miss in the future
Some of the girls will be staying. Some of us will be going.
But all in all so scattered
I don't know how it will be in the next few years of our lives

Tonight also made me wonder if I have made it all right
Whether i have done everything i wanted in my uni years
Also if i have been a kind person to the others.

Every single conversation led to the future.
Who we'd want to become. what we'd like to be.
And I hope all that, will not end JUST as a dream.

Tonight was a lot about self reflection.
and I'm really glad that we have each other.
despite of whatever happens in the next level of this life.
you and me we'll go through all of that together.

a simple life.

2010-10-08T01:08:00.047+10:00

I want to be successful and have a home located at the greenest side of town.
a small car just enough for us, one family to travel all in one round.
a homey place where we can cycle in the evening
and gaze at the moon and the stars by our porch when the clock hits eight.

A place where during the weekend we can go picnic
somewhere near the riverside where it is beautiful and green
where we can hear the soothing sound of the water streaming.

A place where under the stars we can barbecue and grill,
doing all that while enjoying the sound of the guitar
melodically so lovely played by some of the kids?

A place where the sound of the birds will be singing to us like a lullaby
so lovely we can fall asleep, so soundly, till the morning hits
when the chickens will cluck cluck and wakes us up just in time

we can then wake up. and look around
be Glad because all that may not just be a dream...............

and I'm loving the sound of the rain in Brisbane right now at 1.20am :)

remember this

2010-10-07T10:38:00.002+10:00

When you are on top of the world ,
Always remind yourself that the earth IS round and it rotates every 24 hrs a day.

and today is yours, but tomorrow, who knows?

Bear with me

2010-10-06T16:58:00.011+10:00

It's been months and months and months.

I don't really know if I am ready for it again.
Sometimes I feel like this mono path I am currently in
Is way better than the duo ones, that used to look very promising

I'm taking it slow. just really really slow.
So bear with me will you please?

If you understand what I mean. Then You would know how it feels.

brand new

2010-10-05T11:25:00.003+10:00

i was feeling kind of tired after grinding myself for a many nights
doing all the thesis work.
so i decided to give my blog a new name and a new look.
what about that? liking it so far?
well as for me. am loving it.

and I'm not so clueless anymore =)

*xoxo*

physiques

2010-10-04T22:24:00.009+10:00

I don't find it that funny or smart when people make comments about other people's physique.

I just find it rather shallow and very immature to make fun of something that was created by God.

No one is born perfect. You may think that you are one very fine creature but just because what you got is something that is in the main stream, that doesn't mean the uniqueness present in others is not beautiful.

Even worse when the people who make such remarks are those whom you are close to. It could be someone you love very deeply. someone you care about or someone who you don't even know who.

well it is acceptable to comment on one's attitude and character or style cos those can be changed or altered but seriously never ever on their physiques.

and I hope I haven't been that kind of person all these while. If i have, I would like to improve

if I have been all that to you. I'm sorry.

self expression

2010-10-03T23:45:00.011+10:00

omg. being a postgraduate research student is not an easy life. there i said it. there you go. being in denial all these while. yes i was. all that independent work. all that independent research. designing your experiment. proposing it to your supervisor. then make it all work in a stretch of 6-7 months. going to the lab alone at dodgy hours. all that is seriously not an easy task.

to top all that up. with no classes and all, you don't really have a buddy system around to work with or to help you motivate yourself. then when you call home. everyone is just so busy doing what they do best in this season of raya socializing and etc.

i'm not complaining not i'm not. though i do sometimes. but just sometimes i wished i had a different kind of of life than the one i'm currently having in the lab. As a matter of fact no one is really at the lab sometimes. it's like you have this one big room all to yourself.

got to know some new students from the July 2010 intake just recently. and they are telling me all these stuff that's bothering them and they are having the same sort of emotional conflict like the ones I've gone through in my first semester. can't help but to just smile at them and tell them they'll get through it. cos here i am in the final weeks of the semester. and surviving still.

well the only tough part currently is writing that super long thesis. with lack of knowledge and all. you really have to dig in to reach that 15000 to 18000 word limit.

and back then in my undergraduate years i couldn't understand why they have workshop for mature postgraduate students adjusting in Australia. after getting to know quite a few and being one. now i guess i really know why.

it's all, an all by yourself process and the only strength you will ever need is within you.

ouh well. there is never such thing as you will never understand. or you could never understand so i must not break down. because the only reason why I will never understand something is when I choose not to Listen. Learn and Understand.

Ouh God give me strength and I really don't want to give up just yet.

how i wished writing a thesis is as easy as writing this entry in my blog.okay don't fret please put a smile on that face princess

new pair of love

2010-09-30T20:54:00.007+10:00

just finished an interview session today and I got myself a new pair of love.

so that's what i call it. and loving the look of it on the green green grass in st. lucia

i like this

2010-09-29T00:34:00.000+10:00

How far you go in life depends on your being tender with the young,
compassionate with the aged, sympathetic with the striving
and tolerant of the weak and strong.

Because someday in your life you will have been all of these.

a reason to dress up

2010-09-26T22:19:00.009+10:00

bring me to parties.
bring me to theatres.
bring me to concerts.
bring me to a fancy dinner
bring me to the beach
bring me to a theme party.
bring me to open houses
bring me to weddings

and for all the other things. plan it and make it more special than the usual days.
then i'll be less of my usual self. and i'll put on that extra effort to look my best.

haih busy period striking in. clearly i'm currently thinking about all the fun things i can do

okay random post. i'm so tired. i think i should just go to sleep.

random pick

2010-09-20T16:48:00.015+10:00

in anything, and anything at all. in friendship. love. family bonds and all

the pursuit of happyness

2010-09-20T16:07:00.011+10:00

i remember watching this very inspiring movie last year

while having shepherd's pie for dinner made by D

with her and haziq at his place in Indooroopilly

but i only get to watch it halfway up to the climax

and i shall watch it again after my thesis submission this year:)

loving the quote Will, and its a must watch for everyone. for real like seriously.

life

2010-09-18T20:56:00.009+10:00

Throughout life people will make you mad, disrespect you and treat you bad.
Let God deal with the things they do, cause hate in your heart will consume you too :)

(Will Smith)

world university rankings

2010-09-16T18:42:00.014+10:00

A friend of mine posted a link on the rankings of the top 200 universities in the world by The Times. My university is listed at 81. well not too bad I supposed. Curious I was, I went on looking if Malaysian Universities is listed as one of the top in the world.

To my disbelief Malaysia is not listed as one of them. Singapore with their National University and Nanyang Technology University was listed as one of the top 200 with the rankings of 34 and 174 respectively. Even better than where my university is standing currently.

You may wonder why I am in disbelief and kind of upset. Its just because I remember reading the newspaper report a few years back which says that University Malaya is listed as one of the top 200.That sure made me proud to be Malaysian.

Unsatisfied so I went on google to check if there are any reports on current UM ranking. I found out based on QS World University rankings, UM is listed at no 207 and UKM is listed at 263. and my university is listed at 43.

i'm not sure which is more accurate? The Times of QS? well whatever it is I do hope that Malaysian Education system will go way up the notch. because things are very different here I do find that their system is less stressful and are more encouraging compared to my pre-u days back in Taylors. Well I supposed its just a culture kind of thing

I've never studied in Malaysian University so I can't really judge.

Well whatever it is I hope that politicians in Malaysia will stop quarreling with each other and work for the nation instead. work on developing a better community. a better greener environment and encourage more of positive lifestyle.

their government here be it opposition or the government are working hand in hand. and are doing so much for their nation. well how about ours? All I hear is noise. and a change of systems and policies from year to year. maybe we are not doing our job in the right way?

and just may be our government should promote better work ethics among our people?

the way I SEE it we got quite a journey ahead. but we can always start from somewhere

for more info;

http://www.timeshighereducation.co.uk/world-university-rankings/2010-2011/top-200.html

http://www.topuniversities.com/university-rankings/world-university-rankings/2010/results

whatever it is. the saying does goes...malaysiaa boleh!

Words of wisdom of the day.

2010-09-15T05:40:00.000+10:00

"People often say that motivation doesn't last.
Well, neither does bathing - that's why we recommend it daily."

(Zig Ziglar)

Raya

2010-09-09T17:08:00.003+10:00

Regardless if its going to be a small celebration or a big one with family and friends near or far from home.
We should all make the best of what we have.

I remember my first time celebrating raya over here
I made some instant rendang and ketupat palas to keep my loved ones happy.

Isn't that what this whole month is all about?
About giving, forgiving and spreading happiness to one and another?

I don't know how mine will turn out this year.
But joyful moments with my good girl friends is good enough for me.

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri. Maaf zahir dan batin.

Ikhlas from the very deepest core of my heart, :)

self-protection

2010-09-07T11:10:00.002+10:00

Each time I feel like I want to be near you.
I will take a few steps back, away from you.

some saying

2010-09-06T13:06:00.002+10:00

Always reflect back on your nawaitu.Others don't have to understand it. Its not their nawaitu, its your own.

becoming my mum. back in the 90's.

2010-09-06T00:14:00.002+10:00

From handbags, shoes to those chunky earings .
the saying such as.
hey that's so like what my mum used to wear
is so nice and pleasant to say currently

to top that up. I just got myself a handbag.
which the design is somewhat the same as what mum used to wear .

and having that bag is somehow like having a time machine.
bringing you back to the carefree days with mum

a call i need to make

2010-09-03T22:45:00.000+10:00

sometimes i wish i can make a call to God,
and ask Him what is His plans for me really.
so that I could get all the answers to the questions in my head instantly.
hence no longer i have to live this life so clueless-ly.

birth

2010-09-03T13:01:00.002+10:00

Here is the first ever post acknowledging the presence of Muiz's Baby sister to this world

She came sharp 3.58pm yesterday 9 days before ramadhan ends 2nd Sept 2010.
I was told that Muiz asked everyone in the hosp room to keep quietbecause his cute lil baby sis is sleeping. One very sweet gesture from an elder brother

well like a piece of clean white cloth she came to this world
waiting for the world to characterize her well
with good family support and good surroundings.
all that may be possible. InsyAllah :)

on the other hand I can't wait to do the many many girly stuff with her.

*editted as I was told that she doesn't have a name yet. talk about very*confused* parents

five days

2010-08-31T12:14:00.001+10:00

5 days. 5 days was all i had. and i can tell you it was like a dream.
9am to 12 am each day in that five days we hit the road
from darling harbour and the opera house
to harbour town and surfers paradise.
then back to brisbane at the queen street and botanical garden and south bank.

after all that it suddenly came back to
just the sound of me and my heater again in my room.

those giggles. cuddles. and laughter together.
ended so blissfully yet sad for me.

and i'm back to my old routine again. back to uni life.
back to working hard to get that cert to hit the real world road back.

ouh wow 2 more months more to go. and no turning back.

well for at least. nothing was shattered or broken.
they left me at a distance but definitely not at the heart..... =)

secret visits.

2010-08-24T14:07:00.000+10:00

Last Friday I just found out that someone i know secretly visits my blog.
Well that's nice to know.

Because I've written quite a few posts which mentions your name
Hoping you'll read it someday.

Well
Do enjoy my writings. its not extravagant. but i hope you like it. :)

bieber. my favourite cover.

2010-08-20T17:16:00.000+10:00

mak pernah kata

2010-08-19T12:39:00.000+10:00

remember those days when dad was away
and there was no such things as handphone.
and you want to tell your dad something but u can't.

this is what my mum told me to do
talk to him through your heart.
and he'll hear you.

and I believed it then. and i still believe in it now.

cheers.

Thoughts

2010-08-18T01:47:00.000+10:00

you know you are getting old.
when the songs that you love to listen to
have switched on to the other channel

Words of wisdom of the day.

2010-08-16T23:28:00.000+10:00

You can count on me like 1 2 3
I'll be there
And I know when I need it I can count on you like 4 3 2
And you'll be there
Cause that's what friends are supposed to do, oh yeah

ps: spending time with ana carla. was so much fun today.
and i'm very excited for Wednesday for Brisbane's largest......

it has been 23 years and a week old

2010-08-13T21:06:00.000+10:00

a week flies really fast. and sometimes i caught myself daydreaming. and acting like I couldn't careless about uni. supervisor won't be around for at least a couple of weeks. and the most important machine that i have to use for my research broke down yesterday. not sure if i should be happy about it or not. oh well. tiada kaitan dengan post ini.

reminiscing 6th of august 2010.
spent the night with the girls i love the most.

they've watched me dance.
they've watched me sing
they've watched me fall
they've watched me cried
and they've watched me putting on the most inappropriate attitude

yet they are still around.
sticking around.
guiding me.
and not ever giving up on me

so. we laughed. we cried. we've been through it all together.
may our friendship last forever.

Love,
Your dearest friend.

first ramadhan in brissy for the last time

2010-08-12T17:51:00.000+10:00

despite all the challenges i faced today.
the weirdest chilly and super cold windy weather.
which makes me sneeze a lot.
causing me to feel very uncomfortable with myself
I stayed strong.

wanted to either skip work or skip puasa today.
but i'm very proud i did both anyway.
and i stop sneezing right after i decided to fast and work anyway.
guess it was all a test from god.
haha lust. you are so game over this time.

things i cook on day 1:
nasi carrot + ayam masak merah.
can't wait to taste it!

pssssssssssssssttttt :
after work I bought some baking ingredients to bake some good old choc chip cookies to send back home for raya! haha tell me about it. excited sangaat!

and today is great. experiment went well. managed to finish up 3 day experiment in one morning. and work is fun. had a good time doing puzzles with four year old blond girl name emma. cute!

The beauty of Ramadhan

2010-08-11T00:23:00.000+10:00

Many times I've been questioned by my non-muslim friends on why do I have to fast during the month of ramadhan. Often my answer to them is because our God wants us to feel the sufferings of people who are less fortunate compared to us.

That was the answer I gave back when i was in my Teeny Weeny years.

As I become older. I've realized there is something more than that about ramadhan. It's not just about abstaining ourselves from eating and drinking, but it is also the month where I am more careful in my action and more careful in preventing myself from performing any unhealthy. hurtful or sinful behaviour that is haram in my religion. And I think this goes the same with other ibadah such as solat and others.

I mean you can really tell the change in your behaviour when you are wearing a religious clothes during your prayer and when you are not.

The world is such a beautiful complex unit and sometimes we are often caught up with catching up with the world and often many of us are in stressful or unhappy situation as we are too caught up by how the world works.

The beauty of Ramadhan is that it helps to nurture our tired souls, and taught us many things about humility and patience. It is the month where we focus our daily routine towards forming ibadah and getting closer to our creature.

When we fast. we feel more calm. more patient. and we tend to avoid ourselves from making sins. That's a bonus to everyone. Although I do get tired as I won't be able to eat from dawn to sunset, often I feel that once I get into the act. It becomes like a natural thing to fast.

So Selamat Berpuasa everyone. Forgive me for my sinful behaviour and mistakes that may have hurt you in the past. We are all human. and none of us is perfect.but we are definitely learning and improving from day to day. well hopefully.

Hence, Let's perform one of the 5 pillars of Islam with full of contentment and hope our Ibadah this year is accepted by the Glorious Him. InsyAllah : )

tweetfacts of the day

2010-08-09T11:35:00.000+10:00

At 6mins 7secs
after 5 o'clock on Aug 9th 2010
it will be
05:06:07 08/09/10.

This won't happen again until 3010.

3010? probably will be dead by then. and this blog will be classified as artifacts. hehe

sweetness of life

2010-08-07T22:30:00.000+10:00

Allah is so sweet. He give me hardship He give me pleasure.
He give me luck. He give me success.

my days are not always that great or that happy in a week
sometimes it is so dull. that i have nothing much to tell to anyone.
but then again. after all that dullness. and sometimes sadness. and loneliness.
there will be days. that will be filled with lots of joy and laughter.

so really. if you ask me.
everyone goes through shit in a day or sometimes in a week.
but in the end. we should all think about the good times only.
because those are the thoughts that keeps us happy and going strong.

*AUG futsal tournament 2010 was fun this year. thanks to Jaja for bringing me along

well goodnight everyone. :)

may life be sweet for you as well :)

twenty three

2010-08-07T00:48:00.000+10:00

twenty three today.
celebration is somewhat different.
i feel kinda old and just older.

and i've just realized that its been 5 years.
that i've been missing my birthday dinner with my family.
all i really want to do is pack my bags.
and be with my loved ones. really
because i've grown. and i've grown a lot
emotionally mentally and physically without them near me.

mummy said that
she knows that deep down. when i come across a rocky road
she knows that i was born strong
and i'm a very a determined person.
and deep down she have faith that i'll get through it.

somehow. sometimes. i don't really feel that way.
with circumstances like this i just have to put on a smiley face.
be brave. be strong. and let nothing gets into my way.

so many things have happened in the last 5 years of my life.
and all that i really did in that 5 years was chasing my dreams.

that card really affects me emotionally. in a way.

i miss you mummy. and really. very much indeed.

aura.

2010-08-02T22:11:00.000+10:00

It was a three way conversation.
one person was talking to us about capturing your aura.
and a friend of mine replied.
if they were to captured mine.
it will look like the rainbows; bright and colorful.

i wonder. is that so.

when i was somewhat 9.
my sister told me the colour that would reflect me the most is; orange.

ouh well. goodnight everyone :)

words to ponder.

2010-08-01T15:08:00.000+10:00

Your maid may be able to iron your 'baju melayu' on time
but your lady makes sure that the 'butang baju melayu' is on, all the time.

i find this really cute.

steal it from abang adi's facebook. status.

if you ever give up.

2010-07-31T00:13:00.000+10:00

ouh well maybe next time your body and soul should listen to mr. hope instead. :)

blast from the past

2010-07-26T23:07:00.000+10:00

there is this thing about the past.
that we cannot change.

there is this thing about the past.
that we wish we did not say.

there is this thing about the past
that makes us learn

there is this thing about the past
that changed us for the better.

those spoken words we wish we could erase.
those lousy jokes we make that weren't that funny anyway
those things we say that hurts a lot yesterday
seems like miles and miles away ever since that day

there is this thing about the past.
that people use as a weapon to judge you.
there is this thing about the past
that people most often misinterpret about you.

even if you want to sort it out now. that could never be.
even if you want to talk about it now. makes you look like a pointless noisy flying bee

so farewell i said to the past.
there is no point of getting into sadness
let's just let those memories rust
and just look inside. forgive one another and change for the better.

and no. this is not some classical poetry. its just me. letting some things out.

unspoken words.

2010-07-21T23:03:00.001+10:00

there's a little truth behind every 'just kidding',

a little curiosity behind 'just wondering',

a little knowledge behind 'i dont know',

and a little emotion behind every 'i dont care'.

well that's something for everyone to ponder. about.

for a good cause

2010-07-18T23:01:00.000+10:00

just about a week ago i went to an interview session with the PSD officers at Brisbane's Hilton. and since then I've been doing lot of thinking.

Though I've said before that i really don't want to work far away from home it seems i've changed my mind. i guess if my intention in working is really to work for a good cause. to give back to the people in need. and to put my knowledge to a good use.

i am going to stop being selfish and put my "wants" aside.

come to think about it now. i really don't mind working anywhere. if I can survive being by myself in overseas for four years. i can go anywhere. rural areas in the peninsular. Borneo. Indonesia. Africa. or any third world nation. you name it. I am willing to be there.

well the pay that i will get. may not be much. but being able to lend a hand is satisfyingly rich enough for me.

Well then. Hello world. your health officer is ready to serve in 2011. =)

word count bug

2010-07-15T14:04:00.000+10:00

had lunch with latep around this time yesterday.
told him about the 2x15000 words assignment that i have to write
+ final thesis 15000 words.

asked him if i'll be doing okay.
he said. 45000 words. aha. okay you can do that in 3 months. i write 20 pages a day.

and i'm like. whaat? okaay i'm definitely not latep. got to work harder this time.

guessing game

2010-07-14T11:32:00.000+10:00

i know i am not supposed to write up any post this time of the year as i have 2 really big assignments that i have to work on. but seriously its been awhile and i really can't help it. so here goes.

not once. not twice. but i get this each time.

everytime i meet someone new in uq or brisbane or australia in general. they will play a guessing game called where you come from;

and each time. without fail. people tend to guess that i'm from vietnam. cambodia. or myanmar.

talk about my very asian look. or should i say my very south east asian look.

but seriously don't i look like i'm from malaysia at all?

no. that's what they said.

okay sad case.

darah cina. darah middle east. darah siam. darah indo. thanks to you;

i've become cambodian. or vietnam or myanmar according to them. haha

whatever it is. i'm just grateful with.
the fluffy/wavy/straight mood swing hair.
the small eyes and unnoticeable eyelids .
the med size nose.
the not so thick lips.
and lastly the happy flappy ears.

and i can't find a reason good enough; to change or fake it in any way =D

dream about changing

2010-06-21T11:41:00.001+10:00